I think I never fell asleep in the evening, in those moments when you sum up your “to do list”, knowing that you have done everything, never; there is always something left behind; for example, I go shopping with the list of things to buy, I read it and I still manage to leave and realize i forgot something, as if I need to leave something unfinished, I don’t know what for.
If I tell you “unfinished” what’s the first thing that comes to your mind?
All the things in my life come to mind, that feeling that I carry inside every time that, as always, I don’t finish something and leave it there. It is a feeling of home that I know very well inside, which gives me a subtle tension that I need a little to live; it gives me the certainty that there are still things to do, even if there are some things that rightly expire and it is not always possible to bring them to completion. I think I never fell asleep in the evening, in those moments when you sum up your “to do list”, knowing that you have done everything, never; there is always something left behind; for example, I go shopping with the list of things to buy, I read it and I still manage to leave and realize i forgot something, as if I need to leave something unfinished, I don’t know what for.
Unfinished: what color / shape is it?
A warm, yellow-orange color, a color of energy, solar energy, linked to fire. It has a gaseous, volatile form, it is neither solid nor liquid, it could be a flame, a cloud, a breath.
Is there something you have left undone in your life?
Can I make a list? What immediately comes to mind are the great unfinished projects of my life: a three-year degree in journalism, not fullfilled despite the fact that I had already started my thesis. I start things and then add others. I enrolled in university because I wanted to become a journalist but before graduating, I had already found a job as a journalist. A more recent unfinished is the fact that I didn’t officially separate from my husband, a tacit agreement after we had the documents prepared by the lawyer. We had an agreed on everything, on the division of things and on the children, but formally we have never taken this step, neither of us has spoken about it anymore. Thinking aboutsmaller unfinished, everything that is courses, certifications comes to mind, for example the diving course, I did hours of theory and practice but never took the test, I wanted to take the certification and then I decided that I didn’t care. Then there is a project with a friend for an innovative family mix start-up, a nice idea of sharing economy, a babysitting exchange network between families.
What is your relationship with unfinished things?
As I said, I experience them with a slight patina of underlying tension, even a little sense of guilt as a condiment, but it is also a bit as if it were a trait that distinguishes me that is part of me and therefore it is as if I I said: but that’s okay, it wasn’t important, in the meantime you did other things. I think I need this subtle anxiety, it’s like it’s a push to move on. If I was the good girl who ends it all at the end of the day, it wouldn’t be me. This tension is a hidden part of me, I say to myself “I’m not a good girl”. I always hated as a girl but also at work that they called me “the excellent Eve”, it’s not me, I know I’m the unfinished.
Something unfinished that you would like finished?
It would be an unfinished piece tied to a place, to a house. I am from a Sardinian mother. In the countryside near Sassari where there is the family home, a large house with lots of land, with an old wood-burning oven, very beautiful, now abandoned because all the old women who lived there have passed away over time. At the moment it is empty and with my mother we have discussed many times what to do with this house. It is as if we could not get to the point, so many possibilities but no specific project. Every now and then we talk about selling, I should have made an ad for it a long time to put it up for sale, but I never do. My mother asks me if I have placed the ad, but in the meantime she continues to talk about possible projects. We don’t know what to do with that place to be able to keep it, as a child I lived there 6 months a year, I grew up there, there is a part of my life there, I would like it to find its way, a project.
Long live incompleteness why?
It makes me feel alive.
When is something done for you?
When I forget it, when I no longer have a thought for it, I archive it in a drawer of my mind, it no longer knocks on my door. There are unfinished ones that since I will never complete, for me they are complete, because it does not even interest me to complete them anymore and they end up in the box, in oblivion together with the completed ones.
What is a fertilizer for you?
Human relationships, people’s energy, sisterhood is food for me, my children fertilize me a lot, filial love. Lately even animals, I just got a dog, which was previously unthinkable for me.
3 words that you would match with unfinished?
Can I put myself in it? Eva, will, tension.